Tuesday, July 14, 2009

Bex and Balance

My crew. Lynsey and Jay. In the past year, I've done pretty much everything with these two. Birthdays, trivia nights, weekends at the beach, concerts, drunken debauchery... we've done it all. They've seen me go crazy over the guys I've dated, listened while I cried when life doesn't take the course I really want, and laughed with me (ok, and at me) when I have a life freakout over just about anything.

2/3 of my crew have fairly recently started dating people. Obviously, I am the 1/3 that remains dateless. They are two of the best people I could ask to have in my life, and I am terrified that their impending serious relationships are going to completely change our group dynamic.

What do I do to stop myself from becoming a proverbial fifth wheel? No matter how many times I am reassured that I am a big part of each of their respective lives, the hard truth is that boyfriends and girlfriends change things. Not only do I not deal well with change, I do not deal well with the threat of being placed in the back seat in the social lives of two of my favorite friends. I'm seriously struggling with the natural inclination to be happy that the pair of them have found (potential) love and throwing a hissy fit that I can't rely on them 100% to be up for a Saturday afternoon movie or grabbing drinks after work anytime I want.

I'm hoping the wedding of a dear old friend, a fabulous concert, and some quality beach time this weekend will bring clarity and help settle my discomfort with this situation.

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